I think it's funny...

...the reaction that some people have when I tell them that I'm pregnant.

I'm not talking about close family and friends, because they know me pretty well. I'm not the type of person that oohs and ahhs and is all cutesy. I'm just not. I'm blunt, straightforward, and you basically always know where you stand with me. If I have a problem with you, you will know it. I haven't always said the nicest things to people, but I always try to speak the truth. With that being said - I actually am a really nice person (I feel the need to point that out after what I just wrote!) but don't ever expect me to act a certain way just because you think I should.

For example- today a co-worker asked me if I was pregnant because "I hadn't told her yet". Well...it's not as if I sat down every single person to announce what was going on with me. I told my boss, my team, HR, benefits, and of course people that I am close with. Other than that, I just kind of let news spread (because it always does). After I confirmed to my co-worker that I was pregnant ( I said yes with a smile) she asked..."well are you excited about it? you don't seem excited about it." Umm...did she expect me to jump up and down and giggle...is that what people do? I told her that yes, I was excited. And that was that.

I think part of me acting the way I have been is that I just don't feel pregnant yet. I am thrilled that everything is going so well (no morning sickness, no tiredness, no real weight gain), but it is just so WEIRD. My mom made me feel better when she said she didn't feel pregnant until she was 5 or 6 months along. It sounds silly but when I heard the heartbeat yesterday I actually thought "Ok, good, there's still a baby in there!" Obviously this is all new to me, and I'm sure once I get a bit bigger and feel the baby move, then I will actually feel pregnant.

xoxo