Nicholas saw the pediatrician yesterday and weighed in at 7 lbs 15 oz. Good, but not great. Even with my trying to breastfeed and supplement with formula, he is still not getting enough. It's hard to not get down on myself. I read an article recently where some mothers feel like less of a woman because they had to have a c section, that they were "cheated" out of a vaginal birth or that their body wasn't capable of going through it. I don't feel that way at all, but I do feel like a failure because the breast feeding is not working out. I've cried a lot and have had to set Nicholas down and walk out of the room, step outside, etc., just to get my bearings and pull myself together. My abdomen has also bothered me a bit lately and I think it's probably stress related, not an actual problem. Like I said, it's been a tough few days.
On a positive note, I had my blood pressure checked and it's back to normal so I don't have to go on medication - thank goodness!
Here are some pics of the little guy :)
5 comments:
You are doing a great job!!!
sending hugs and love your way crys......you're doing an awesome job and you're a great mom!!! It's wonderful to hear you have such a great support system.....It'll get easier!! big huge hugs!!!
It's totally normal to feel this way. I know the feeling of having to just close the door and walk away sometimes. There's nothing wrong with it at all! It's a trying time with little reward at this point and that takes a lot out of you. Believe me when I say that it gets better, but in the meantime be sure that you're asking for help when you need it!
It helped me out A LOT to go to a breastfeeding support group that was facilitated by a lactation consultant. I went until Gwen was probably 8 months or so. You should see if your hospital has something like that. If not, Winchester Hospital does every Wednesday, it's free and you can go even if you didn't deliver there.
LOVE THE POOP PICTURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:) here for you always you're a great mommy, don't get down on yourself!
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